He/She + Worry =/

I'm worried about her. I'm worried about him. I'm worried about school. I'm worried about piano. I'm worried about..EVERYTHING. OMGAHH!!! ALRIGHT, STRESS SUCKS.
Questions that run through my mind on a daily basis..
-why can't he just let go..there's no point of sticking around. You're only hurting yourself.
-why can't they either be gf/bf or just not friends at all?
-when will he realize, he needs God more than her.
-why isn't he/she texting back?
-what does he/she think of me?
-why can't she be nice for once? To her friends? I mean she's nice to people who aren't close friends with her..

So many random questions..that will soon be answered, I hope.
He needs someone..to talk to.
I'm here.
He doesn't reply.
What can I do?
She talks to me..
like I'm not human.
Am I supposed to ignore her? Yes, I'm human & quite hurt infact. But I'll still be your friend and forgive you. Just lighten up the hectic person you are okay?
But seriously, there is No point of talking to me if you're going to continue acting the way you do. STOP. just STOP.
Oh, God. I pray for him, he needs you the most. She too. THey both are in their darkest moments. They both don't have the light of you and are drowning in the darkness of this crazy and mad world. God, I want to help them...but how? Lord, they are in pain..for losing their partner. Well, not really losing. But, not having that best friend relationship. One's guilty of which is understandable, that leads to depression 24/7. The other isn't guilty. But, their ex is. What do we do when we're in guilt God? How do we show people that you, God are the only one who can unconditionally love them and forgive their sins. That they can start over..even without their ex-bestfriend/gf because you are the JOY in life. I feel helpless because I can't do anything to help them. But, you God can do miracles...even though they're losing their faith in you each day.. There must be some way to waken them from their deep sleep.

I know that you God have been through much for me. You were crucified for me and everyone. And I ask that you will help me remember that for life. Even though I'm not going through that much of a rough time, I want to always remember that so when I am, I can depend on you. Now, I know they may be going through a rough time and their only solution is to face you. Like the movie said, "Eyeball to Eyeball with God.." If only he/she would realize, that without you is like breathing without Oxygen.

Salsa Club!!!

I recently joined a club..:) guess what it is???
SALSA CLUBBB!!! :D
its really funnn! Well, the first day, I danced with a girl. I think her name was Katie. And she was a Kiltie so she wasn't allowed to dance with any boys.. But, after half an hour, she left for the First Football GAME of the season. AFterwards, I just sat and watched everyone dance with their partner.. then sudddenly, out of nowhere, a prince comes and takes me by the hand to dance. I'm like woah. Well, not quite eggsactly. haha, he just an experienced salsa dancer. It was my second time dancing with a male. haha. I had fun. even though he spun me around like SEVERAL not few but SEVERAL TIMES.! xD and today, was my 2nd day of practice.. it was interesting. ;) he's trying to guess where my parents are from which is kinda funny. and yeah..thats basically all I had to say.

I've always wanted to learn salsa esp. with a guy. Lol. because its def not the same with a girl. I learned salsa at Jarrett. Just a little of it..and it was really awkward because I was a loner back then so I didn't have anyone to dance with. Plus no confidence, hence the loner part. Anywhos, I'm glad that God led me to this dude.

Oh, its just nothing (:

I'm sitting in her room, writing this blog to her. She just got out of the shower lookin' fine.~ hehe. xD No, i'm not a creeper! (: But yeah, back to the point of this blog. So, I really admire this girl. She's smart, and beautiful. She stands up to her beliefs. Like, she wouldn't be pressured to take a cig from someone even if they offered. She can read my mind like no one else can. (cept, perhaps, God) haha. She knows my clothing style better than me. lol. Just yesterday, she was telling me about all these cute clothes that screamed my name to her. hah, what a talent right? She knows how to talk to guys and make friends easily. Laugh at jokes even if their jokes aren't that great. She can be herself in most situations. SHE HAS NOTHING TO HIDE. She's confident. Or at least appears to be. xD But yeah..I know that she can overcome anything that comes her way..I believe she can. I just hope and pray she can overcome her troubles. And make peace with God. :) I'm sure God will listen to her, if she just puts her mind and heart and soul to it. God, thank you so much for this girlie. Even though she may have alot of troubles in her home, I ask you to just put a hand on her and walk with her through her life. AMEN. :D

Pride.

P Proud
r ude.
i think of myself only?
d dumb. (fool)
e Evil.

Lately..I have been too 'proud'. My mind is evil sometimes.. it wanders and creates false ideas. Or judges too quickly. Or thinks dirty. I need to stop. And pray more.. Being prideful how? Well, once I rearended a car because that morning I was feeling a lil too cool in my lil sleeka. How crazy is that right? Yeah, it happens. Like, I think I look cool or the HOTTEST but actually I have flaws. LOTS and LOTS of flaws. The more prideful you are...it will get back to you and EAT YOU UP. NOt cool. OH, GOd, help me Humble myself before you. NOthing is as great as you Lord. I need your daily guidance. Why is it that I think I'm the best at stuff? When there's always someone better? WHy is it that I think I"m the one everyone likes to be around sometimes but really isn't? And then there are the other times that I feel like I have no friends. BUt I actually do..compared to some other people. SIgh* I really am lost. I want to be confident in everything I do. But when I do reach that 'stage', I end up being too cocky. WTH?! God, how should I live? Lead me...please.

People.

Emotion: Annoyed.
WHY? People need to forgive and forget.
They shouldn't act disrespectful to those who they think that are not as important. I think that everyone needs to treat each other the same. Not judge or be mean because of something they did. I also should take my own advice... After watching the video at PHildas, I was like wow. Amazed. And Stunned. I want to be that friend who can be there..I want to be that friend who is responsible and loving. all that good stuff. xD I also need friends who can be there for me. I need help God. To be who you want me to be. And treat others the right way..

Day 10

Confession:
I'm starting to like someone that I shouldn't. I think.. I can't tell. Its really annoying. It feels like just becuz she said those words -just don't fall for him- It made my heart skip a beat and ask myself, Have I fell for him? No.. can't have. We're just really good friends. Dats all.
I don't think I know what love is. It kinda evaporated from my soul when school started. My 'thing' for chyea is so over. I'm not sure what really attracted me to him. Its like the why did I date him thing? He's sucha jerk. (not really, but to me yes) I wonder if thats how he thinks of me..But anyways, today CD was pretty cute. xD Maybe I haven't gotten over him, maybe I just took a lil break..
I really don't want to think about LOVE. Its just too complicated. I'm better off of loving God. He doesn't just stop texting you or not be your friend.

Day 9

2 Smileys that describe my life right now:
:) Numero Uno. Tomorrow, I'm going to skip school for Drury to do yoga and I have a tennis match to play, plus I get to work with someone that I've never worked with!
:) Numero Dos. I got new SWEET glasses!!!
[I did this because I won't be home to type this tomorrow]

Day 8; Three Turn ONS.

1) Scent: A scent that smells sooo good that I don't want to step away from. Instead, just get closer and take a deep breath. AKA YUMMY. =D
2) Invades my personal space, just enough so I become a lil fidgetive & heart beats cuz I'm nervous. haha.
3) Physical Touch.AKA. Hands on my butt. Not really if I DON'T KNOW YOU WELL. haha, Just perhaps, a lil brush against arms/legs? or something. lolololxD
P.S. Looks fine (: & has good clothing style +Smiles! (:

Day 7

Four Turn Offs:
-Bad Hygiene. (Smells bad..doesn't take care of body; this includes smoking/drinking)
-Can't respect me or others. (if I say stop, he better stop)
-Flirts with every girl he meets even if he doesn't like them that way.
-Shows off too much. Too proud/arrogant.

Day 6!

Five People Who MEAN A LOT to me:
Friends(5:)
-Chris & Joyce
-Abby & Chris
-Allan & Luke
-Karina & Moly
-Ian & Hannah
FAM (5:)
-Mousey.!(:
-Mom/Dad/Brother
-JESUS!

Day 5 -6 things I wished I never done-

1. Kissed him. Bought him a hat. GIVEN him a chance.
2. Bought clothes..that I don't need.
3. Think dirty thoughts?
4. Pressed on the gas.
5. Become addicted to texting/facebook.
6. Went to Canada.
WOw, so much stuff has happened this year.. its like *speechless moment* *breathes out* God sure gave me alot of obstacles. And yes, I did MAKE A MISTAKE(S) & fall...but I've gotten back up. And I'm going to keep running towards you God. Help me finish this race fulfilling your purpose of creating me here on Earth. I need you. Because no one else can give me such amazing peace in this sinful world. No one else can give me love which lasts forever. Love that doesn't die in one day, week, or a couple of months. I can't do anything without you, if I did, there wouldn't be any meaning.
What I've learned from these things that I regret:
1. Don't give random people chances. Don't trust easily..
2. Think before buying clothes.
3. Ask God for help. Don't hang with people who think dirty thoughts?
4. Watch what your doing...
5. Not addicted anymore! =D I'm more addicted to blogging..lol
6. Plan ahead. Don't depend on people. Be responsible!
16 is so hard..so many responsibilities. Its almost overwhelming. But, I can do it...its duable with God by my side.

Day 4

7 things that cross my mind alot.
7. I'm dumb. -_- (when I do something stupid)
6. Am I bi? No...don't think so. I just think they're attractive?
5. Why can't I at least appear to be confident?
4. I need to do something productive. Stop being lazy!
3. God, help me. I can do all things with you.
2. I wish I could do play like that.
1. Why can't I make conversation with people?

Day Tres

8 ways to WIN my heart.!
Uno-Has a passion for GOD. Has a heart and relationship with God.
Dos-Laughs at my stupid/dumb jokes. xD
Tres-Is respecting, caring and loving towards me & other ppl, esp. family.
Cuatro-Is motivated and determined to achieve his goals.
Cinco-Is responsible for his own actions.
Seis-Understands and accepts me for who I am.
Siete-Can Dance & Sing beautifully~
Ocho-Has self-confidence and a radiant smile that brightens up the whole room. :) (can be a man when needed)

Day TWO.

9 things about myself..

Uno: I enjoy learning Spanish (as you can see)
Dos: I am a visual & kinethestic learner. I like to see things on the board and take action!
Tres: I replay alot of 'special' moments in my head.
Cuatro: I love playing piano and singing.
Cinco: I eat like a pig.
Seis: I pray to God when I'm feeling lonely and depressed or in pain.
Siete: I enjoy being alone sometimes. (I need my personal space)
Ocho: I'm a shopaholic..
Nueve: I read almost every label on a box. (Mostly on cereal boxes) xD

I STOLE Helen's Note. xD

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) 

Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now. 

Day Ten: One confession.

Since Today is DAY ONE...Here's the listo!
1. Chris.
a) I Really enjoy playing tennis with you.
b) You're the best Coach anyone (but esp. me) could possibly have.
c) You're a really caring and understanding person.
d) You can be kinda mean though in a playful way.
e) You are one of the only guys who doesn't think I'm not cool enough/ too young to hang with.
f) You are super buff. haha xD But, healthy buff. (:
g) You are BEAST at everything you do-includes Tennis, Washing Cars, etc.
h) You always know how to cheer me up. Even when I'm having a bad day, you can put a smile on my face.
i) You and Joyce = so cute!
j) Joyce is very fortunte finding you as her soon-2-be other half. :)
Love ya Coach!
2. Abby
a) You're always there when I need to talk.
b) We've known each other since FOREVER. :D
c) You will always forgive me even if I say something really mean.
d) You won't hold grudges because you have an open mind.
e) You can eat any kinds of food even the bitter kind ahah!
f) Your texts are surprising and encouraging.
g) You love everyone the same. <3
h) You can talk alot & loud too! (:
i) You're the most GORGEOUS white girl I know. xD
j) You and Chris are SOO adorable together!
I Love You Abby FOREVER + ALWAYS! =)
3. Yanchi
a) You're a good man. Not a boy no more..*shakes head* lol
b) You know your priorities and actually try to stick to them.
c) Your driving is smooth for stick shift driving; Gracie is BA.
d) Hanging with you was a fun experience. I don't regret any of it.
e) You're almost everything a girl could want..
f) You lack self confidence..its okay, I do too. sometimes. Just remember: You're better than that. ;)
g) I'm glad we don't text anymore. I just wish we could talk face to face more naturally? We will eventually.
h) I hope you can find aN AMAZING CAREER and an AMAZING gf one day. (I'm sure you will)
i) & I hope you will always love God by keeping him in your heart. <3
j) You'll always have a place in my heart praying for you.
Love ya ex-texting bud. haha. >:D
4. Moly
a) You're a fun person.
b) You know how to be mean, but in a nice way. (sometimes) haha
c) You sure know your way downtown like an expert.!
d) Your hair is like OMGAH.
e) You're an outgoing and talkative friend. Which suits well with me..quiet/ asian.
f) I want to tie my converse like you did yours! But, I don't think I will ever find out how..
g) You can sometimes get on my nerves..
h) Your piercings used to scare me, but now they are considered 'normal'.
i) I used to strongly dislike you..way back in Middle School.
j) I'm glad we became friends through Hannah. :)
Luv ya skewl frannn!
5. Karina
a) You Mexican friend. :)
b) I love eating breakfast with you each morning.
c) I also love talking to you in Spanish.
d) I think you're one of the reasons why I really enjoy learning Spanish.
e) You're really pretty.
f) You know how to make decent conversation. Something I need to improve.
g) You have nice clothing style.
h) I miss the Summers when we ate Andy's Frozen Custard.
i) I love how Christian and we're FCA buddies.
j) I appreciate you as a bestie.
Love you Karina~
6. Helen
a) I really enjoy going to the library with you too. Just to go. haha.
b) You inpsire me to become more feminine (make-up, pluck eyebrows, etc) xD
c) You're beautiful just the way you are. I wouldn't change a thing.
d) You are strong willed for being able to handle a mom like that.
e) Your theories are so weirdish correct. (not all the time.. but sometimes) haha
f) Your volleyball skills are SEXY BEAST.
g) YOu show a lot of joy and love even if you're down.
h) You make me smile each time you get in my car. xD
i) You're GPS skills are envied.
j) You're an AMAZINGAWESOMELOVING cousin! >:D
i LOVE YOU X100000 <3
7. Brother
a) I miss being able to see your face sometimes.
b) You've taught me alot of things.
c) You are blessed to have McKayla as a gf.
d) Your music talents are definitely a gift from GOD.
e) Getting that multicultural scholorship is truly a blessing for you and our family.
f) You're smart...but are you willing to put in the effort?
g) You and me have grown farther apart..it seems.
h) I love that you actually considered not going to your one month in advanced planned bday party just to pick me, helen, and holly up.. That means alot.
i) Your dorkiness is amusing.
j) You're the best brother (even if you do THREATEN to da me) in the whole wide world.
I LOVE YUUU GE GE.
8. Dad
a) I really appreciate you for working so hard at the restuarant 24/7 for our family.
b) I'm entertained by the fact that you try to learn Spanish even though your Eng. isn't ALL that great, but its understandable haha.
c) Your meals are always filling and DELICOUS. I don't think I would have grown this skinny if you didn't feed me. Lol.
d) Your genes (acne) wasn't necessary.. but, the THICK, DARK, BLACK Hair-I'm lovin' it! :)
e) I'm really blessed to have a father who doesn't drink, smoke, and do drugs.
f) You influence me a HECK lot even though you may not see it.
g) Your willingness to work is sometimes annoying because its like, "JUST TAKE A DAY OFF ITS ONLY ONE FREAKIN DAY!"
h) Your letting me get off of work early to play tennis is always a :) moment.
i) I hope you will come to God and choose to follow him before he takes you away..
j) I also hope you and Mom will be baptized together.
I love you DADDY FOREVER AND ALWAYS.
9. MoM
a) You're so hardworking..it makes me feel a lil melancholy for you sometimes.
b) But, seeing you smiling and singing really makes me smile and tear up all at once. x)
c) You're a really smart lady who actually uses those brain cells.
d) You've inspired me SO MUCH.
e) You're the best mommy everrr..even if you might not think so.
f) I'm really blessed to be your daughter.
g) I don't know what I would do without you.
h) Your beautiful inside & out.
i) God is shown through you instantly like the sun when its rays hit the Earth.
j) I want to be just like you someday..
I LOVE YOU MOMMY FOREVER & ALWAYS.
10. GOD.
a) Your ability to create the Earth and everything on it is INCREDIBLE.
b) Your LOVE is unfailing and overflowing.
c) Your light shines even if there is thunder & LIGHTING (like there is currently)
d) Your my shelter.
e) & my HEAVENLY FATHER.
f) Your awesomness is indescribable.
g) Actually even considering sending your son down on Earth is by far the most ridiculous idea (thats how us humans might look at it) But, to you..its normal because you're GOD, the one who loves us FOR ETERNITY.
h) Even though I have rejected your presence and ignored you..I pray that that will change.
i) I want to be filled with the Holy Spirit when I'm ready.
j) I hope I will always have this relationship with you God. :)